My fainting a few weeks ago obviously upon its occurrence called my health into question, it’s not normal for young girls to just faint dead away for no good reason and there are two scenarios that seemed the most likely: one, that I have my mother’s condition, which is a mix of what we believe to be undiagnosed bipolar disorder and diagnosed epilepsy. She is erratic and has complete 180 degree mood swings on a dime. Her condition began when she was a year younger than I, which is abnormal for what it is. The other scenario that I thought about was that I could possibly not be eating enough, that I may have, if it’s even possible, mild anorexia. And of those two scenarios that occurred to me, the first was significantly less likely, and infinitely more frightening.
This feels stupid and repetitive, but this is my corner of the internet, and I tend to be those things sometimes. This isn’t bothering me at the moment, in fact, I went to the doctors and they found absolutely nothing wrong with me. It was just in my drafts and I wanted to make sure I mentioned that last line. It’s significant to me.